Monday, 30 March 2015

Simply Be

We're all thinking about tomorrow. 
We're crossing things off our list.
We're looking towards the finish line. We've forgotten where to find our bliss.

But what about this moment,
that's here?
Why do we avoid it?
We're counting this 
and subtracting that,
when we could simply be 
and rejoice it.

There's nothing else to catch. 
We have to let go 
and unattach. 

We have to let go 
and humbly embrace,
all that's in us 
and all that's around us. 

All that would drown us
and  everything that grounds us.


Sunday, 29 March 2015

Cafe Paradiso - Chapter 6

      I spotted a sandwich board on the side of the beaten up road , Cafe Paradiso 100 metres.  The hawkers were out trying to drum up some business, for the boats that ferry the tourists, up and down the toxic waterways. I Keep my head down and walk towards where the sign had pointed.  
     The backpackers were awake and were ambling along the canal, chatting in their local lingo and  taking in the local action. The sounds of their babble competed with the incessant blasting of horns and the screams of 2 stroke engines. 
      The cafe was right beside me, I almost missed it, it was that small. It was nestled in beside the black, oily canal. It was a little bit of Venice in the Subcontinent. 
       It was whitewashed, with quaint French cafe scenes, frescoed on the walls. 
It was mostly outdoor sitting, steel chairs and tables with white umbrellas. The umbrellas were stained a dirty brown, from the leaf debris that fell  from the overhanging trees. 
      A young local kid with a big Afro and a bigger smile,  "Hey bro what's up." He was wiping down the tables, out the front. He greeted me straight away. He'd been chatting to some Austrians and cut it short, to find me a table. 
        The menu was small, mostly drinks and a couple of eggy breakfasty things. I ordered a fresh pineapple juice and a latte. The latte was a bit of a let down but I love the kids enthusiasm. He'd be a Local Hero, if he lived in Byron Bay. 
       He thrived on the international travelers and was desperate to travel himself but most likely couldn't afford to. 
      "Where are you from man? he asked. 
"Australia." I  answer, speaking very clearly, the way travelers do, to make themselves understood. 
"Love your hair man." I complimented him. It was as shiny as a Raven's, from the coconut oil, that they massage into it. He  was tanned with a smile, that stretched from ear to ear and carried a child-like innocence with it. 
      We chit-chatted for a bit. His name was Vik and he'd been working at Cafe Paradiso, for his boss Antony, for the last eight months. Vik said his boss would be in soon for a coffee. 
      When Antony arrived, Vik introduced him to me. He was a very smooth, silky character, not slimy, just smooth. Tight black shirt and black jeans, stylish hair and a neatly trimmed beard, that hid most of his deep acne scars. He would've been early 30's, single, wealthy family, oldest son, a bit of a player but genuine enough.     
        He sat at my table and we spoke about his businesses and Enfield motorbikes and what I did with myself. He smoked expensive, heavily filtered cigarettes that weren't too offensive. 
        He eventually left and I was alone at last and free to write in my diary and send some emails. I checked into Facebook first and checked in on my old life. I never thought much of Facebook before but it was a cheap and easy way to keep in touch with my mates and family, while I was traveling. 
           I love this cafe, it's more than the sum of its parts. It inspires me and reminds me, of why I'm traveling. 
          A gondola glides past like a swan.  Empty of tourists, It disturbs the shimmering reflection of trees and riverbank. A stench of sulfur wafts up from the churned canal, it catches me unawares and brings me back to earth. 


Like a Child

Perspective

Stressed or Blessed

Focus

Sunday, 22 March 2015

Life and Love.

Cafe Paradiso-chapter 5 Elaine.


     Elaine was quite tall but not enough to really notice. She was slender and graceful and moved in a way that wouldn't catch a boys attention. But in a way, that another girl would admire.
     She had shiny, straight, chestnut brown hair, that was stylishly short and parted to the side. 
      Her Mum was Filipino and her Dad was Australian. She had that beautiful Eurasian mix, of olive skin, freckles and dark brown, almond eyes.
        She did this little nervous thing with her mouth. She was a worrier. It was just her nature and maybe her background. 
        Her old man was a big drinking, hardworking, Aussie bloke, whose moods swung, like the opinion polls before an election. 
        He could be a big gentle bear one moment and as prickly as a cactus the next. 
        Her Mum, bore the brunt of most of it. It wasn't physical abuse but mental. 
        His words felt like the smart of a slapped face. They singed the air with the ferocity of their fury. 
        I think it was her sticky, irritating patience, that moved him. 
        She was very Catholic. Pictures and statues of Jesus and Mother Mary stared at you from every room. She was always muttering to them in Spanish, a complaint or a prayer.  
        That was her saving grace I suppose, that and Elaine, who would stand up to her father, when his angry, rum-fueled tirades, became too much. 
         Like a Terrier she would stand in front of him and just stare him down. No words were ever spoken, none were ever needed. He used to say that she could scare a Bulldog out of a Butcher Shop with that stare. 
        It was Elaine's nature that I loved the most. It was her purity. She was like freshly washed linen, left to dry in the sun all day. She smelt of sunshine and cheap lavender shampoo.
       She was a listener, she would listen intently to people and laugh uproariously, at their bad jokes and their funny ways. 
        She was quiet but not shy, she was innocent but not naïve. 
        She always carried her lip balm and some tissues and a little purse, in a small bag. She wore simple gold stud earrings and a thin gold necklace, with a gold Aum, that danced around her neck when she ran. 
         She chewed her nails and only ever wore natural fibers. 
         She never swore and she was as stubborn as stone. 








Two Steps Forward

Flowers

Monday, 16 March 2015

Be Your Self.

Power and Magic.

Cafe Paradiso - chapter 4 Espresso


   I'd read in the lonely planet, about this cool cafe, on the North Canal Road in Allapey.  It's called Café Paradiso, Cinema Paradiso has been one of Dad's and my, favorite movies forever. I thought this was a good sign. I marked it on the map and thought I'd head down before lunch and check it out.
     The thought of checking out Allapey's only cafe, with an expresso machine, excited me. I felt like There was another cafe, just out of town, by the beach, with espresso coffee. It was owned by the same guy who owned Cafe Paradiso but it was further away and I wasn't in a hurry to get to the beach. 
      Dad hadn't raved about the coastline around Allapey. Big wide open beaches, littered with rubbish and cursed with very little swell, is how, from memory, he'd described them.
      Gowri residence, where I was staying, certainly hadn't been done up since the old man had been here. There were three bamboo Bangalows that sat derelict, off to the left of the compound and took the shine off the rest of the place. 
     I spoke to the desk boy about moving rooms. That morning I had seen three English girls packing up and getting ready to move out and I thought that I could take there room. It was sunnier and it was in a quieter and greener locale. 
    Even with all the heavy rain last night,  the main road out the front of the hotel, was already drying out and the day was becoming hot and dusty. 
      It was the end of October and the rainy season was finishing. Peak season started next month.
     My thongs splattered wet, muddy  gravel onto the back of my legs, as I dodged around the constant scream of traffic and people. 
     The sun was fully out now, along with the rest o Allepey. I was heading down to North Canal Road, to look for Café Paradiso and hopefully find some good coffee, with a good vibe and some free Wi-Fi. 
     I hadn't emailed Elaine for a while now and I thought this beautiful breezy morning, would be the perfect opportunity, to sit down and send her some news. 
    I hadn't written to her for a while and I knew she would worry, if she didn't here from me soon. 

Monday, 9 March 2015

Amma P.

A suspicion of cheekiness,
plays  upon your lips.

A deep love for God, 
beats steadily within your heart.

A spark of Divine  love, 
dances in your eyes. 

And all your words,
are perfumed, 
with a wistful wisdom. 

That  soothes our weary minds
and nurtures our fragile hearts. 

Sunday, 8 March 2015

Cafe Paradiso- Chapter 3 Dane

   She'd finished Uni studying architecture, found a job straightaway with an eco-friendly firm and realized pretty much right away, that it wasn't for her.
    She was working part-time now in her old job and had gone back to Uni to study nursing. Architecture had been her Dad's dream, not her's. 
    Life was pretty full at the moment, so being in a long distance relationship suited her perfectly. 
     She'd fallen in love with Dane, as soon as she had looked into those big brown eyes. He was so nervous when he first started talking to her. But he hadn't given up. She loved him just for that. 
    He wasn't like other boys, all confidence and no substance. She'd almost given up on the idea of ever finding a boy, who had the same longing to serve the world, as she did. 
    She saw it in Dane, buried underneath his insecurities and his awkwardness.
    He'd been a vegetarian since he was nine, and he had this thing with animals and babies. They would practically throw themselves at him trying to win his love. And he always seemed in awe of their innocence and their attention. 
     She loved that about him the most, his unaffectedness and his gentleness and those big brown eyes. And his muscly  arms. Oh and that Brad Pitt, kind of cheeky, smile. 
    She missed him and thought about him every day, but she was happy he was away. Most of the time.  
   She knew her studies would suffer if he were around. Another year and she'd be finished the first part of her degree and then she could start her practical. 
   Or if Dane was still traveling she'd take a year off and join him. 
   She hoped he'd still be traveling, it was one of the things that kept her going. 
   That and the long emails that he would send her. He would share everything with her. He was an open book. She loved that he trusted her with all of his innermost feelings and she knew that she could never break that trust and she never would.
     She also knew he hated being controlled, a thing his Mother had stirred  in him. 
     Because she was also a free spirit, she knew that would never be a problem between them.


Friday, 6 March 2015

All the Love that I Am.

All the love that I am is pointed at You,
that's the You in my heart,
that can't be divided by two. 


Tuesday, 3 March 2015

Shame.

The greatest waste in life,
is the time we give, 
to guilt and shame. 

See it as a game,
don't name and blame.  
There's never any benefit,
from feeling shame. 

And no lessons learnt, 
when we name and blame. 


One

The square root of 1, 
Is 1. 
1x1x1x1 to infinity.... is 1.

There's only one
and we are all one. 



Monday, 2 March 2015