Grateful

Alone

Standing alone on that hilltop,

all those years ago,

I'm sure I felt your silence,

I'm sure I understood,

your timelessness.

I was overwhelmed by the peace,

that imbued the hauntingly,
undefinable, symmetry,

of your rawness.  

My heart flew open,

to the reality of your non-existence,

the beyondness

of you.

Later,

cocooned in the oceans expanse, 

of your briny cobalt blue. 

I hear only the crackle,

of sandy seabed below,

and the passing of waves overhead.

Beyond that, 

the distant cries of seabirds...float,

above the eerie, 

unerodable stillness...of you...

and I know you're here to. 

As a small child,

I fell often, into a noiseless,

peaceful space,

absorbed in my own doing and being.

In my teens,
I remember walking along this deserted,

windswept beach,

on a wet and cloudy,
dark gray day.

I felt so alone.  

Not a sad alone, 

but a searching for meaning alone.

Surrounded by your majesty,

the jagged and torn brutality,

of your creation. 

I knew you were close.

The wind drowned out,

all but your silence,

stinging my lungs,

with salty, sea-drenched spray.

My sandy footprints, 

erasable proof of my short odyssey,

meandered eccentrically behind me.

It's absorbed in your vastness,

your wildness,

that I'm most aware of your closeness.

My thoughts get lost, in the indescribable depths,

of your nothingness,

your everythingness.

Gazing up into the black felt darkness,

of the new moons night,

sprinkled with starry pinpricks of bright, silvery-light, 

I'm spellbound.

Hypnotized,

by this immeasurable pincushion,

of star-filled, 

moonless night,

I sense the smallness of my plight.

Encircled by your overwhelming, 

awe-inspiring, boundlessness,

I am lost in the pure indulgence,

of your might.

You have delivered me back,

to my true nature,

by the realization of your grand nature.

You have delivered me back,
to my true nature,
by the realization of your selfless nature.

Immersed in your great ocean of truth, my searching has ended.

Curled up tightly,

in the nurturing dreams of your motherly embrace, 

I'm sleeping ever so soundly,

listening to a song sung so sweetly....

Thoughts

Happy

Lifetime

Smile

Grateful

Dream

Smile

Desires

    Desires are like this. The senses send a message to the brain. The intellect then discriminates wether it's good for us or not. 

   But sometimes we disregard the intellect because of weak mental fortitude. We give in to our desires. A pattern is established, a habit is formed, karma on repeat. 

We smell those donuts, we know they're fattening, but one more's not going to make a difference. Is it?

    We hear some gossip, we know it's not good to talk bad of others, but they'll never know, will they?

   Break the pattern, replace the habit, stop creating more karma.

   Our will can only get stronger, when we exercise it. 

Self

More

Grateful

Truth

Poker

Life isn't a game of solitaire. 

Its a game of Poker. 

You don't have all the cards. 

There are risks. 

Sometimes you have to fake it. 

But there are great rewards. .

Confidence

I

Victim

Love isn't the victim at the end of any relationship. 

It's peace and joy and confidence that get knocked around the most. 

Overflow

Darkness

Fight

It's not about you and your soul. 

And it's not about you being in control. 

  It's not about you and God. 

For he's neither outside, below or above. 

  It's just about going within and letting go of your sins. 

  Sins are bad habits, that break our connection to Divinity.  

Our Divinity is sacred and beyond personality. 

  It's our character that's shines, from doing what is right. 

It's our sacredness that glows from fighting the good fight. 

  Some say it's not a fight or choosing what is right, but just accepting is the key to make our journey light. 

But as well as that I think, there has to be a fight.  

  A push to leave behind , all those habits that slow us down. A letting go of all our baggage that would eventually have us drown. 

 

  It's not a fight that's an internal struggle, it's a fight that removes the trouble. 

  It's a fight to stay aware and enjoy  every bit of Life. Enjoying every God blessed moment and keeping out of strife.